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Under the Stars: We were blockmates. When we first met at OrSem, we had an instant...→

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We were blockmates. When we first met at OrSem, we had an instant connection: we made each other laugh and we had weird conversations about the world. It was not soon before we started confiding in each other. We became good friends fast.

He was my happy crush. He was also already in a relationship. When I was with him I contented myself with the thought that we’d be friends and only friends - it took a lot of pressure off me, and I was cool with being friend zoned.

We got closer and closer over the year, staying up late to chat with each other, especially over the sem break. He would tell me about problems he was having with his girlfriend. I talked him through them. The closer we became, the sooner I realized that my happy crush on him was turning into something serious.

Then everything changed at Under the Stars 2010. I went with an English blockmate whom I didn’t have any feelings for, just as friends. Inwardly, I was glad that the guy I liked was going to a party instead of bringing his girlfriend to Under the Stars. Seeing them together would’ve ruined the whole event for me. 

It was already kind of ruined for me anyway. My date was a bore. He was such a spaz! He kept apologizing for how boring he was being. I kept on having to console him with, “No, you’re not boring!” and “This is nice.” 

It wasn’t very nice. Here I was with a boring guy wishing I was with The Guy I had the most meaningful conversations with. The Guy who could make me laugh harder than anyone can. The Guy whom I felt was my oldest friend, even though I hadn’t known him a year. 

“Look, stars.” My date pointed up at the sky, a feeble attempt at making conversation. I looked up and saw that it wasn’t even very starry. The lights from the Katipunan buildings competed with the lights from the sky.

I counted eleven stars. Upon every one of them and every one that I couldn’t see, I wished for The Guy. It was a crazy wish. I didn’t wish that he would leave his girlfriend for me, or even that he would be in love with me. I just wished he were around. 

Then the weirdest thing happened, and I SWEAR this is true: my cellphone rang, and it was a call from HIM. I excused myself from my date and ran out to the entrance of the event to take the call.

“Hi,” he said. I tried not to melt. “Where are you?”

“JSEC Field! Why?” I tried not to show how happy I was that I was talking to him.

“I’m dropping by! I’m at the entrance.”

I SWEAR this happened: I looked to my left, and there he was, handsome in his maroon long-sleeved polo, jeans, and sneakers. And he was looking right at me. 

We awkwardly made our way towards each other and said hi.  He said that he was leaving for his party soon and that he just wanted to stop by and see what Under the Stars was really like. 

In the middle of a huge crowd, we found ourselves a vacant spot on a mat. We sat down together and we just talked. About anything. About nothing. About everything. We were one happy little island in the middle of a sea of lovers and friends. 

At that point I knew that I didn’t need anything else. I didn’t need to be his girlfriend. I was just happy being there with him, under the stars, just talking like two very old friends.

He pointed at the sky. Clouds had gathered, and a recount showed that there were only ten stars left. “There were eleven before you got here,” I said, hoping he wouldn’t attach any significance to that statement. 

It’s now almost a year since that event, and the two of us are going to Under the Stars 2011 as a couple of eight months. Not that the number matters; it still feels like he’s my oldest friend. He has that certain familiarity about him that I cannot find in anyone else. He really IS that guy I’ve been dreaming about for so long. He is someone I can share everything with, even comfortable silences. 

I feel like I’ve been in love with him for a very long time. And I feel like I still will be for many years to come.

I DESPERATELY WANT TO GO. 

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